In The End

So it is finally over. I mean school. I have been out for three days and I'm already officially bored out of my mind. So in the past week leading up to the end of school. I have accomplished two things. Surviving school and killing my phone. I swear I'm prone to machine failure. I totally killed my cell phone. It wouldn;t even come on when it was plugged into the charger. So i had to get a new one luckily my warranty wasn;t up for like a week and a half so i didn;t have to pay for it. I got a phone exactly like my old one except this one had a mp3 player.

So yesterday I spent like half the day trying to download this program that lets me put music and pictures onto my phone from my computer and it actually worked. So I was really happy. I have also found out that my phone can have a memeory card, but I haven't found out where to get one yet. And if you didn't know I'm obsessed with ringtones.

The awards ceremony went well at my school last week. I ended up getting most of the awards from the classes I took (I'm not trying to brag). TAD says I continually flaunt my smartness and make her feel dumb ,so sorry TAD. I really thought I wasn't going to get very many this year. There is like a competition between me and this other girl named Jodi. but it's kind of an unspoken competetion. Or atleast it is to me , I don't know about her.

Tomorrow is going to be awesome. TAD is having a birthday party and it is going to be fun. Probably the highlight of my summer. Which I know is really going to be pitiful. This morning TAD and I were talking about what would happen if me, my mom, jeff, john, justin, and jess were all on a survivor show together. We both figured Jeff would probably win. Then I thought "HEY" we should make a comic about it so we are going to. I would probably end up on a team with John and Justin and they would try to sacrifice me or something.

You know I never did post what happened between me and John, but maybe it's better that way. I try not to think about it anymore. When I really do think about it I find I can't really decied if it was my fault or not so I just don't like to think about it. Besides it was three months ago. WOW. It seems like longer than that. Things are going pretty normal between us now though so it's alright.

I constantly wonder what happens after we die, but doesn't everyone. I'm reading this book and they mention that people come up with the theory of the afterlife so they won't be afraid of not knowing. Which is true. If people think they know what's to come they aren't as scared. I do that alot with stuff. I think about what is probably going to happen so I won't worry about it so much. Believe me I worry about everything. And I don't really mean too. I can think about showing pigs next year and worrying about it and it's almost a whole year away. Or thinking about my senior year and wondering about whether or not I'm going to be Valedictorian. I really worry about that stuff even when I know I shouldn't. I just can't help it. But when you think about the bigger picture none of that stuff matters in the end.

You know alot of the time I think about the world. Like sometwhere in the world there is someone somehwhere thinking just like me. But we never know that because people live in there own little place. We never think about things going on with people in other towns, in other schools, when they could be doing the exact thing we were doing and we think we are the only ones going through that stuff. Which is really kind of freaky when you think about it like that. That you are just a part of a huge process and everything and everyone is connected in some way. That reminds me of a book I read once. Oh well that's all my pscho babbling for now.

“Not every end is the goal. The end of a melody is not its goal, and yet if a melody has not reached its end, it has not reached its goal. A parable.”

“This is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning.”

“In the end we will conserve only what we love. We will love only what we understand. We will understand only what we are taught.”

Ok this quote has no real point I just thought it was funny-
"Procrastination is like Masturbation; In the end you're just screwing yourself.”