Being Old

I know I'm not really old yet, but it does seem like I'm getting farther away from what used to be. Kindergarten, elementary school, the good times when nothing mattered except for being happy and ennjoying life. Now it's all about the grades, the schools, not looking like an idiot in front of the entire universe. Or at least that what my life mostly seems like. Even if I'm not a school I'm worry about my homework, a test I have sometimes, or sometimes I even worry about not having a life. I mean I have friends and stuff, but there is this group of friends that seems like they just have the greatest times in the world. They are spontaneous and just go out and have a good time, I wish I could do that. More often then not my friends have other things to do than hang out. It just seems like life is passing me by.

My friends started talking about the future today, and I couldn't really join in. They were talking about at what age they wanted to get married and have kids, but that isn't really important to me. Sure I want a boyfriend and to get married and have kids before I'm 40, but I want to travel. Explore the world, not just the little part of it that I've seen already. But what is a good way to say, I just want to get away from all you people so I can actually be myself. I think I'm much more interesting in my head than I am in reality. I don't try to act a certain way around myself that would just be ridiculous. But around everyone even my family, if I act a certain way I get looked at funny or treated different. I think that's the problem with being around people since you were in kindergarten. You can change, but to them you kind of always are percieved in the same way. I've always been a quiet person that kept to myself, and now that I seem to want to be involved with people, they kind of stay away from me.

Now that high school is almost overe and only one year until I'm 18 I've started to realize how different things are going to be. I mean for awhile after high school I'll probably live at home but in a few years I'll move out and have to fend for myself.I won't have friends that I've been around forever to rely on. I'll actually have to get out into the world and meet new people. And if you've ever been to anything FFA related you would now that it's a very strange experience having to work together with people you barely know. Oh well I guess I'll rant some more some other day.

The years teach much which the days never knew. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Do not regret growing older. It is a privilege denied to many. ~Author Unknown

Holy $#$% it's been a long time!

I haven't been on in almost a year I'm such a slacker/procrastinator. It's not like my time is absolutely inspareable or anything, even though this school year is kinda kicking my butt. I haven't even posted anything about my schedule or how the end of school was so instant recap of the last 10 months:

1st went to Florida on Spring Break which was fun

2nd the end of school was wonderful cause I had three months of no stupid High School kids

3rd I took two college classes, sociology and post civil war American history which will require their own blog to tell you about my awesome teachers.

4th I got my restriction off my license

5th school started again which I will relate details about shortly

6th One day until Thanksgiving Break

* insert after 1; I'm lazy took to much effort to retypenumbers, but I have to tell you about prom. Anyway I went with one of my friends, not a guy unfortunately no offense to Kelsey. We had chinese food with some other people then went to Prom which kind of sucked in my opinion. After prom was more fun,but not in the OMG this is so exciting way. For those of you who actually pay attention and are wondering how I went to prom since I wasn't a Junior or Senior , here it is I was an Honorary Sophomore which mean't I got to help do all the stupid crap for prom and got to attend.

Back to my normal ranting, school is uber hard , yes I said uber. Physics and Trig are difficult and time consuming, but I made A's in them the first nine weeks. Here is my schedule:

A1 Physics

A2 Earth Science

A4 Trig

3rd hour Economics

5th hour Yearbook

B1 Psychology

B2 English III

B4 Agriculture

So if you're wondering where band fits into this schedule, it doesn't. Yes, I know shocking right! I just got so fed up with no one caring except the same people who always show up, I don't like sucking much either. Then our band director's son died this year, which I feel bad cause I wasn't very supportive. However, the rumor is that he is resigning. We shall see. About my other classes, earth science is filled with some of my schools lowest ranked on the intelligence scale. There is only six people who actually have an IQ over 100, the rest couldn't reach that added up counting all 20. Psych is really boring, so is Econ. Yearbook was fun until the teacher got something stuck upher butt that she hasn't managed to get out yet. English III is a blow off class filled with Yatting Yahoos, but they actually are decently smart sometimes. Ag is basically study hall until I have to start my speech. I can't wait till next semester when I can drop three and do concurrent enrollment. I will try to update more, I know you have heard that before, so you know I'm unreliable and can't be trusted to hold that promise.

“The pain of parting is nothing to the joy of meeting again." ~Charles Dickens

“Never promise more than you can perform."~Publilius Syrus

OMG IDK WIHP FSL

I cant believe I havent posted in like 4 months. I didnt even post anything to say I got my license which I've had for over a month now. Its really weird that I can drive even though I'm pretty used to it now and I don't really remember what it was like when I didnt have my license and couldnt drive. People always ask me if they can have a ride now its really quite a burden.

I love my car though and so does everyone else at my skool. Since it's an 05' mustang, but it bottoms out really bad especially when I have more than three people in it. I also hate those stupid little concrete things you park behind. If you have a car as low to the ground as mine you know what I mean. Everytime I park behind one I always end up either like 3 feet back or to close and scrape my front bumper on it. Who knew driving was so difficult when ur not even on the road!

Besides that not much has happened. Skool is half over which is awesome, but I have pig show and a speech contest nect month. I'm definitely not looking forward to those. Oh Well MAYBE i'LL POST SOME MORE LATER THIS WEEKEND.//////MAYBE.

“The best thing about the future is that it comes only one day at a time."