Holy $#$% it's been a long time!

I haven't been on in almost a year I'm such a slacker/procrastinator. It's not like my time is absolutely inspareable or anything, even though this school year is kinda kicking my butt. I haven't even posted anything about my schedule or how the end of school was so instant recap of the last 10 months:

1st went to Florida on Spring Break which was fun

2nd the end of school was wonderful cause I had three months of no stupid High School kids

3rd I took two college classes, sociology and post civil war American history which will require their own blog to tell you about my awesome teachers.

4th I got my restriction off my license

5th school started again which I will relate details about shortly

6th One day until Thanksgiving Break

* insert after 1; I'm lazy took to much effort to retypenumbers, but I have to tell you about prom. Anyway I went with one of my friends, not a guy unfortunately no offense to Kelsey. We had chinese food with some other people then went to Prom which kind of sucked in my opinion. After prom was more fun,but not in the OMG this is so exciting way. For those of you who actually pay attention and are wondering how I went to prom since I wasn't a Junior or Senior , here it is I was an Honorary Sophomore which mean't I got to help do all the stupid crap for prom and got to attend.

Back to my normal ranting, school is uber hard , yes I said uber. Physics and Trig are difficult and time consuming, but I made A's in them the first nine weeks. Here is my schedule:

A1 Physics

A2 Earth Science

A4 Trig

3rd hour Economics

5th hour Yearbook

B1 Psychology

B2 English III

B4 Agriculture

So if you're wondering where band fits into this schedule, it doesn't. Yes, I know shocking right! I just got so fed up with no one caring except the same people who always show up, I don't like sucking much either. Then our band director's son died this year, which I feel bad cause I wasn't very supportive. However, the rumor is that he is resigning. We shall see. About my other classes, earth science is filled with some of my schools lowest ranked on the intelligence scale. There is only six people who actually have an IQ over 100, the rest couldn't reach that added up counting all 20. Psych is really boring, so is Econ. Yearbook was fun until the teacher got something stuck upher butt that she hasn't managed to get out yet. English III is a blow off class filled with Yatting Yahoos, but they actually are decently smart sometimes. Ag is basically study hall until I have to start my speech. I can't wait till next semester when I can drop three and do concurrent enrollment. I will try to update more, I know you have heard that before, so you know I'm unreliable and can't be trusted to hold that promise.

“The pain of parting is nothing to the joy of meeting again." ~Charles Dickens

“Never promise more than you can perform."~Publilius Syrus

OMG IDK WIHP FSL

I cant believe I havent posted in like 4 months. I didnt even post anything to say I got my license which I've had for over a month now. Its really weird that I can drive even though I'm pretty used to it now and I don't really remember what it was like when I didnt have my license and couldnt drive. People always ask me if they can have a ride now its really quite a burden.

I love my car though and so does everyone else at my skool. Since it's an 05' mustang, but it bottoms out really bad especially when I have more than three people in it. I also hate those stupid little concrete things you park behind. If you have a car as low to the ground as mine you know what I mean. Everytime I park behind one I always end up either like 3 feet back or to close and scrape my front bumper on it. Who knew driving was so difficult when ur not even on the road!

Besides that not much has happened. Skool is half over which is awesome, but I have pig show and a speech contest nect month. I'm definitely not looking forward to those. Oh Well MAYBE i'LL POST SOME MORE LATER THIS WEEKEND.//////MAYBE.

“The best thing about the future is that it comes only one day at a time."

First Week

Well technically it was the first three days of school. So school started and it feels like there was never a summer at all. Everyone is basically how they looked three months ago. It was like we were on pause and someone hit the play button again. My classes are ok and I don't think they are going to be that hard. Here is my schedule:

A1 Spanish II

A2 Geometry

B1 English II

B2 Ag

3rd Hour Band

A4 Computer Science

B4 Chemistry

5th hour American History

My least favorite class is American History because all the people in that class talk all the time so we are going to end up having a whole bunch of extra work. Of course the teacher is in a bad mood all class because of the people so it's not very fun. Computer science is probably going to be my easiest class because im on the computer all the time so I know how most things work.

It's really different this year because for the past two years I've had classes with the same people because wew were in "advanced" classes. But this year they broke us up. It's going to be harder this year, since we all used to basically work together on everything. Not cheat, but usually if one person couldn't find the answer somebody else could. At least I have someone I talk to in every class. I would die of boredom if I didn't.

It's funny how people get over some things easily and some things are harder to get over. I decided not to talk to one of my friends for the last month of summer. I go back to school figuring she would be ticked off at me. During lunch I ask her a few questions about her summer and were back to being friends again. It reminds me pf how guys can get in a fight , like fists and everything, and in the next five minutes they are buddies again. I get it's how simple the matter is or something. People are just too complex to try and spend timefiguring them out. And I think that's one of my problems I always try to figure things out.

"It doesn't matter how much you want. What really matters is how much you want it. The extent and complexity of the problem does not matter as much as does the willingness to solve it.”

"Technical skill is mastery of complexity, while creativity is mastery of simplicity"

School

Omg I can't believe I haven't posted anything since June. That was two months ago. I'm really sorry I slacked off so much and here I thought I would post alot more since it was the summer.
Well I guess I'll start where I left off. Back in June.

So not much really happened the rest of June except I went to my yearly Indian pow wow for a day. Usually all I do there is buy stuff. This year I got three shirts, a picture, and two book marks signed bythe artist. Then, we have July. I didn't do much for fourth of July. We drove up to the casino and watched their fireworks.

I didn't have much time to myself after that because my family from Michigan came to visit. My aunt, uncle, and three younger cousins. A three year old, six year old, and a nine year old. let's just say I didn't get to sleep late in the mornings. I also didn't get to sleep in my own room. I had to sleep in justin's room and they got to sleep in mine. The good thing was they kept Jessie occupied.

It was a really hectic day when they got there. Besides them coming my dog Lizzie had puppies. Her labor lasted all day and part of the next. we got really worried because she kept having them so we took her to the vet. Overally she had ten puppies but only five made it. Three girls and two boys. They are half golden retriever and half sheepdog/mutt. All of them except one are goldish. The other one is all black. Right now they are getting so big and really cute! We can only keep one though. Personally I like the two boys. And if we keep one I'm going to name him ozzie.

The first day of August Breaking Dawn came out and I went to the midnight release part. It was slightly boring, not really what I expected it to be. August hasn't been very good so far. For one all week I had band practice out in the heat for three hours a day. It was pointless because the first week off school we have to go over it all again because only fifteen people showed up each day. The other reason is that I got my schedule and I din;t get the one class I really wanted because the teacher left. I'm also not in very many classes as my friends.

Oh well I guess school will be ok I usually just overeact to the beginning of school. I will try to post more, but don't hold me to that.

“School is like a lollipop. It sucks until it is gone.”

“I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing.”

Driver's Permit

Sorry I haven't posted in forever nothing has really happened since school has been out. Except that I got my driver's permit Yay! me. And even getting that I had problems, of course typical me. So I went to get my permit and I was waitng and waiting. You have to get a number and wait. So finally when it was my number we went up and handed them my birth certificate, ss card and was like ok. Then the laddy was like do you have have prof that you passed your 8th grade reading test and I was like uh no. Crap! So the lady let me take my test anyway, which I passed. Then I had to go back today to actually get my paperwork and permit. The only thing is I won't be able to get my license on my borthday I'll have to wait a day :(

My picture looks ok and I guess it could have looked worse. At least I'll only have it for six months until I get my license. And the picture will change. So that's about all that's happened so far. I went to the mall last weekend but didn't get abything but a sticker that said: I don't have an attitude your just an Asshole. I thought it was very fitting especially when refering to my oldest step-bother. Speaking of step-bothers I hung out with my older but not oldest step-bother for 4 hours Friday, Satuday, and Sunday night. Weird. He mainly hung out with me to use my computer, but it was cool. Only slightly awkward.

Since my oldest step-bro got a job working nights at Wal-mart we hardly see him anymore which isn't a bad thing. Oh and I almost forgot we found four kittens. They are soo cute. We only have two now because our neighbors took two of them. There was two black/orange ones and two orange ones, but one is really fluffy anf the other one isn''t. We kept the two orange ones. We originally thought they were girls but now we think they're boys. Mine is the short haired orange one and is named Simba if it's a boy and Vira if it does turn out to be a girl.

Mines the nicest but my step-sisters is cuter. She got the long haired orange one and named him Timon. I thought of Simba first, but she couldn't think of a boy named and went with Timon. Hers was named Emily when it was a girl.All in all I guess summer is ok, I'm not ready to go back to school yet that's for sure. So still two more months of freedom. I'll try to post more even though nothing interesting is happening.

Ah, summer, what power you have to make us suffer and like it. ~Russel Baker


Deep summer is when laziness finds respectability. ~Sam Keen

In The End

So it is finally over. I mean school. I have been out for three days and I'm already officially bored out of my mind. So in the past week leading up to the end of school. I have accomplished two things. Surviving school and killing my phone. I swear I'm prone to machine failure. I totally killed my cell phone. It wouldn;t even come on when it was plugged into the charger. So i had to get a new one luckily my warranty wasn;t up for like a week and a half so i didn;t have to pay for it. I got a phone exactly like my old one except this one had a mp3 player.

So yesterday I spent like half the day trying to download this program that lets me put music and pictures onto my phone from my computer and it actually worked. So I was really happy. I have also found out that my phone can have a memeory card, but I haven't found out where to get one yet. And if you didn't know I'm obsessed with ringtones.

The awards ceremony went well at my school last week. I ended up getting most of the awards from the classes I took (I'm not trying to brag). TAD says I continually flaunt my smartness and make her feel dumb ,so sorry TAD. I really thought I wasn't going to get very many this year. There is like a competition between me and this other girl named Jodi. but it's kind of an unspoken competetion. Or atleast it is to me , I don't know about her.

Tomorrow is going to be awesome. TAD is having a birthday party and it is going to be fun. Probably the highlight of my summer. Which I know is really going to be pitiful. This morning TAD and I were talking about what would happen if me, my mom, jeff, john, justin, and jess were all on a survivor show together. We both figured Jeff would probably win. Then I thought "HEY" we should make a comic about it so we are going to. I would probably end up on a team with John and Justin and they would try to sacrifice me or something.

You know I never did post what happened between me and John, but maybe it's better that way. I try not to think about it anymore. When I really do think about it I find I can't really decied if it was my fault or not so I just don't like to think about it. Besides it was three months ago. WOW. It seems like longer than that. Things are going pretty normal between us now though so it's alright.

I constantly wonder what happens after we die, but doesn't everyone. I'm reading this book and they mention that people come up with the theory of the afterlife so they won't be afraid of not knowing. Which is true. If people think they know what's to come they aren't as scared. I do that alot with stuff. I think about what is probably going to happen so I won't worry about it so much. Believe me I worry about everything. And I don't really mean too. I can think about showing pigs next year and worrying about it and it's almost a whole year away. Or thinking about my senior year and wondering about whether or not I'm going to be Valedictorian. I really worry about that stuff even when I know I shouldn't. I just can't help it. But when you think about the bigger picture none of that stuff matters in the end.

You know alot of the time I think about the world. Like sometwhere in the world there is someone somehwhere thinking just like me. But we never know that because people live in there own little place. We never think about things going on with people in other towns, in other schools, when they could be doing the exact thing we were doing and we think we are the only ones going through that stuff. Which is really kind of freaky when you think about it like that. That you are just a part of a huge process and everything and everyone is connected in some way. That reminds me of a book I read once. Oh well that's all my pscho babbling for now.

“Not every end is the goal. The end of a melody is not its goal, and yet if a melody has not reached its end, it has not reached its goal. A parable.”

“This is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning.”

“In the end we will conserve only what we love. We will love only what we understand. We will understand only what we are taught.”

Ok this quote has no real point I just thought it was funny-
"Procrastination is like Masturbation; In the end you're just screwing yourself.”

Quote Project

During one of her letters to Mrs. Joseph A. Sweetser in late January 1874, Emily Dickinson said, “Saying nothing, sometimes says the most.” She was talking about how death comes in silence and is not assaulting in its’ presence, but still takes away life. That is the reason I chose this quote. It says it is still possible to say something without speaking, but still get the point across.

Emily Dickinson was an American poet. In my opinion she wrote some of the most moving poetry of all time. She was born in Amherst, Massachusetts to a successful but not extremely wealthy family. After being schooled at the Amherst Academy for seven years in her youth, she spent a short time at Mount Holyoke Female Seminary before retiring to her family's house, the Homestead. Throughout her life she was quite reclusive and was mostly found in her room. She became known for being eccentric and her white clothing. In her adult life she rarely traveled outside of Amherst or very far from home.

Dickinson was troubled from a young age by the "deepening menace" of death, especially the deaths of those who were close to her. When Sophia Holland, her second cousin and a close friend, grew ill from typhus and died in April 1844, Emily was traumatized. During her life Dickinson lost many of the people that were close to her. This affected her greatly, so much so that most of her poems dealt with themes of death and immortality, two subjects which infused her letters to friends.

Emily was never married and had only a few intimate relationships that were made known to the public. She never had any children, but was very close to the many friends she conversed with in letters. Although she continued to write in her last years, Dickinson stopped editing and organizing her poems. Emily Dickinson died at the age of 55, on May 15, 1886, but her poems still live on today.

Many people may wonder how if you say nothing, you can say the most. Although to me the point is quite obvious. The deepest feelings don’t require words. For example, when you say I love you it really doesn’t mean that much, but your actions describe your true feelings. A hug or a kiss can say much more, than just simple words alone. That is why this quote means a lot to me. The song “When you say nothing at all” by Keith Whitley and also by Allison Krauss matches the point of the quote perfectly. The song says, “The smile on your face lets me know that you need me. There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me. A touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall. You say it best when you say nothing at all”. I think people could exist perfectly fine without speech. Actually the world might be a better place, at least you wouldn’t have to worry about people lying or talking about you behind your back.

In my opinion facial expressions can say the same things as words. They can show emotions like happiness, sadness, or even anger. They can even show love. If you truly mean something you don’t need words to say it. People can just tell if the emotion is that strong. Sometimes saying nothing can be better than saying anything. When someone is mad at you and you are in an argument, anything you say could make the person madder, so the best choice would be to say nothing at all. I do agree that sometimes saying nothing is the wrong choice too, but that’s only on certain occasions. I prefer saying nothing than talking all the time. I will say that sometimes silence can be awkward, but so can a conversation. Emily Dickinson wasn’t a very outgoing person maybe that was why she preferred silence, but for whatever reason I agree. In closing, remember that saying nothing can sometimes say more than a thousand spoken words.

"Saying Nothing, Sometimes Says the Most"