People

Hmmm... Spring cleaning is technically here and I guess I'm taking part this year since we are moving. We have to be out of my mom's house by the end of March, so over the break I get to pack. I'm really sort of a pack rat. I never want to throw things away,even if they are unimportant pieces of paper because I think they hav memory value. Really though evetunally we lose every thing that isn't the memory itself. Like I'm going to have that piece of paper in twnty years so why don't I just throw it away now.

I guess I'm just afraid if I don't have anything to remind me of that memory I'll forget it. Usually though I forget what I kept something for and end up throwing something away. My friend and I ha this conversation earlier today. You know when you go through stuff and keep something, but a year later when you go through it again you wonder why on Earth you kept something so stupid in the first place.

People tend to have a fear of losing things, people, memories,etc. I guess I'm like all other people in that aspect. I always think I'm going to lose everything. Usually I do since I tend not to remember where I put things. Eventually though I find them again. But what about things you can't find again, like people.

“Memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose."

If you look back through the years like I do sometimes, you realize how much has changed without really meaning to. Friends drift apart and personalities alter. Back in elementary school, bascially everyone was friends, I mean not like best friends, but we all tolerated each other. In high school though we seem to split into different groups. My friends and I always like to analyze the other groups. Since we consider ourslever the band/nerds/normal group. But you never really know what everyone else is thinking about your group.

I never really liked putting labels on people, but in the long run nobody can really help it. You end up separating them based on intelligence,athletic ability, and so on. I guess it takes all the different groups to make school interesting even if it does make it more annoying. Especially the really annoying,really loud, jock group.

“I'm not judging people, I'm judging their actions. It's the same type of distinction that I try to apply to myself, to judge, but not be judgmental.”